I was feeling super weird and alone and emotional tonight and I’m just realizing now that though a lot of that is just me being stupid little me I also fucked up my pill cycle so that’s probably why I cried a lot tonight and have been feeling ugly and emotional and just overall yuck for the past month or so.

God damn you womanhood. God damn you. But I’m taking a spontaneous trip to Cape Cod tomorrow to join a few friends there, because happiness is a choice. It just really sucks that I have to leave to be home by Wednesday when my friends are staying another day or two because I’m working on the fourth of July.. I don’t know, sometimes I just want to be left alone but sometimes when I’m left alone too much I feel like a total outsider. But I’m making the best of it because it’s better than sitting at home feeling sorry for myself, something I am so not up for.

Happiness is a choice.